The Thief

Imagine- You get to your guy's car after a nice date at your favorite restaurant. He has a weird look on his face, but unlocks the door as if nothing is wrong. 

You get in the car- Where is my backpack? Where are my things? What's going on? 

"Oh my god" he finally says. You look back, the rear driver window is all over the seat, shattered. 

Is this really happening? You both pause, both in pure and utter shock. 

Then it finally hits you. You've been robbed, violated. Someone was in your car. What did I do to deserve this? 

My things, my whole life. My backpack was stolen. In it was my clothes, my laptop, my keys, my IDs, my makeup. Almost $2,000 of practically brand new things, everything I needed for my spring break this week. 

I scream. I'm crying, literally laying on the pavement wailing like I just watched someone die. My body is numb. 

Then, as I'm thinking about this things in my backpack, I realize my most prized possession is in there. A stuffed animal that I literally slept with every night since I was 5 and that my mom had before me. I scream as loud as I could from my sadness and pain. My heart sinks so low. She was something so irreplaceable I feel like I could just lay there and die from a broken heart. 

My life is gone. 

The cops come and give us a case number. There's nothing they can really do then or at all. Plus, car robberies are practically last on the list of priority crimes because they happen so very often. 

What has to happen next is the hardest-

Acceptance. You have to accept the reality of the situation; I am never going to be getting my things back. I can't do anything about it. No one saw it and there was practically no cameras. 

Nothing in life lasts forever. Sometimes it takes a traumatic experience to fully realize the impermanence of things. No matter how careful you can be, nasty people can always come along and throw a random "shit grenade" into your life. This grenade can be thrown at anyone, anything, and at anytime. The grenade is inescapable. You have to accept the ramifications of someone else's selfish actions and deal with it. It makes you realize how awful the world can be. 

On a somewhat brighter side, it makes you realize that material things aren't what matters in life. I'm alive and my date is alive. In the current day and age, only material things matter. A tragic situation and make you take a step back and understand that there are truly more things in life than materialistic things. (Almost) Everything can be replaced. 

Yes, losing something sentimental is so awful and makes you feel like your life is over. My heart was, and forever will be, broken and hurt. However, maybe your thing will serve a greater purpose in someone else's life. I hope my stuffed animal finds a good home in a little kid somewhere. Even if it is the thief's child. Lovey served me 15 years of love and comfort, I hope she can continue this with another child that needs her. 

Never get so attached to a material that you feel like you'd die without it. Accept and realize life and the world's impermanence. 

And think- Life always gets better. 

I hope my thief gets what he deserves. 

Putting Nature in a Box

A couple weeks ago, I ordered my Nature Box, and it came in yesterday! I got it for free (with only $2 for shipping) with my the Young Turks coupon code! 

I've eaten almost all of it already! It was so delicious!

It came with Strawberry Greek Yogurt Pretzels, 

Jalapaño Cashews (which were super spicy, but good!), 

Sea-Salt Sun Crunch, 

Cranberry Medley 

and Garlic Parmesan Popcorn Kernels!

They were all so good! Highly recommended! 

Holton Rower

 Okay, so I go on Facebook everyday, several times a day, like most people. Most things I see on my Facebook are from very progressive political pages that I follow. Sometimes, I'll see random posts from my friends, and sometimes, I'll see posts like this one that straight up just make me mad. 

I go to an art school, so I'm very sensitive to the arts. Art is a huge part of everyone's lives, and usually they don't even realize how prevalent it is. 

One of my Facebook friends, who is actually trying to be somewhat famous of whom I refuse to name because I will not give him publicity, made a comment about a video. This guy is trying to be a music artist, so I find it incredibly ignorant for him to make this comment. 

The video is here. 

It's an incredibly mesmerizing video that I actually love to watch over and over again.  David Kaufman made this video about artist Holton Rower who specializes in this kind of art. He's an incredible artist and his works are truly beautiful. People need to be more open minded and accepting of other's work, talent and skills. 

Would my Facebook "friend" like that comment about his music? No. Don't make rude comments about other people's art. To be fair: the video on Facebook was only from about :35 seconds to 1:40, so he may have not realized it's actual art still. This comment just made me angry because just because Rower's art doesn't make sense to him, doesn't mean it won't make sense to anyone else. 

End rant.

Do you think I'm too harsh on this guy? Or do you agree with what he's saying?

Photo Shoot Update

I know I was suppose to have a photo shoot Friday, but it snowed in New York so we had to postpone it. I'll be doing a lot as soon as I get back from Spring Break which ends April 5th! 

Sorry!

Stay tuned!

Hauling It In for Spring

I went on a huge shopping spree today with one of my best friends and spent almost $300!

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First, I went to Urban Outfitters. If you've never been there, then I'm telling you now, they're expensive. Especially for a broke college student. We immediately went to the clearance section and even that started at $19.99 for their clothes.
Thankfully I got lucky and found a cute pair of white frilly underwear! Then, we got two amazing disposable cameras that have built in graphics, so when you take a picture and develop it, the graphics show up on the picture! They're so cool.

The undies were $2.99 and each camera was $4.99. Not a bad steal for an expensive store. 

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Next, we went into Victoria's Secret. I was looking for a good push up bra, but didn't find one that I really would spend almost $40 on.
After I couldn't find one, I decided I need something that at least says Pink on it. I found this super cute dress with "Pink" written on the sides. I love this dress particularly because of the collar. You don't really expect what almost looks like a gym band on it, especially on a cheetah print dress, and it really stood out to me because of that. It's so cute.
And it was only around $32

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We then went to Lush! This is only my second time buying from Lush, but I absolutely love it. I'm obsessed already.
I got a toner water for your face called "Breath of Fresh Air."
I used it tonight after washing my face, and it smells so good! I can't wait to see if it helps my skin in any way. Review for that will come in time.
I also got a bubble bar called "Sunny Day." It's yellow and covered in gold sparkles. Now that I'm thinking about it, I feel like it might turn the bath water to a yellow that might look like pee, but we shall see! Lol.

That concludes my shopping day! We also got amazing Macarons from "Woops!" I got lemon poppyseed, peanut butter and rose flavor! They were incredible. I love the taste of macarons, they're so unusual, but good. Box of 6 for $15!

What are some things you plan on buying for the spring? 

Red and Lace

I went to the Danbury mall with other day and got two of the cutest crop tops. On the left is fro Charlotte Russe- I paid like $9 for it. The white one was on clearance at Hollister and I literally only paid like $8. It was a pretty successful shopping day, even though I only got two things. They are super versatile, so there's many different outfits I can make from them. 

Do you like these? What items do you think I should pair them with?

Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?

So, last night my good friend Alyssa (who has an amazing website that sells amazing clothes that's called Thrift Whore) went to a play at our school's Preforming Arts Center, and let me tell you- it was so amazing. It started with a chorus of the cast beautifully singing, then they start walking around the stage, pick up wooden cane-like sticks and BANG. 

Out of nowhere they banged them against the ground so loud! It scared the shit out of me, but in a good way! Lol. They did what looked like a "Stomp" number mixed with amazing singing. The script itself sounded like the original Shakespeare script, it had all the "doth" ""thou" and stuff like that. The script was hard to follow for the most part, but the amazing acting totally made up for it. Their acting was the only way I really knew what was going on. 

The acting was done by our BFA Senior Acting Group, and it totally shows. They were so into their characters, I almost believed they were the actual characters. They were running on and off stage, jumping around, kneeling on the floor. It was amazing. One of the best plays I've ever seen and it wasn't even a Broadway! The monologues were so gorgeously done, so emotional and so moving. I wish it could have been video taped so everyone could see it.